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Catholics go to hell; and other wisdom from my evangelical upbringing.

I was so excited to tell my Sunday School teacher the news. I had done what she had asked and talked to the other kindergartners in my class about Jesus. One of the girls in my class said she knew Jesus too and went to Church every Sunday, just like me! My Sunday School teacher said she was proud of me for talking about Jesus at school and asked what church my friend went to. I didn’t remember, it was a Saint or something. My teachers face went from smiling to serious. Did my friend say she was Catholic? I was nervous to answer, wanting her to be proud of me again and not sure what I had messed up. I nodded. My Sunday school teacher responded with sadness tinged with disgust. Catholics were not REAL Christians. They worshiped idols of Mary and other saints. My friend was not a Christian and was going to hell, she informed me. I remember the sense of sadness and responsibility I felt after that conversation. My friend didn’t FEEL like someone who should go to hell, she loved Jesus and w
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Changes

A few years ago, a group of friends and I read a great book called "The Subtle Art of Not Giving a Fuck". If you haven't read this book, you are missing out. Its quality. It also came at a time in my life that I really needed the message; you can't care about everything. This book encourages you to figure out your values and use your time in energy in THOSE places, because we can't invest ourselves in every thing, even if they are good things! Its no secret that I was raised in family culture that was heavily evangelical Christian. Anyone who knows me at all knows that I hold that faith system and those who follow it in NO high regard. The last 5 years has confirmed that opinion. Even though I was raised to make Christianity my value set, and it was for many years, I find that I no longer align with those values, people or that style of thinking. I am proud, thrilled, at peace, and excited to be an atheist. My life has never been more on track or full of joy than
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Running away from home

 You might have noticed that the world is kinda stupid right now. Covid, riots, messy elections,  strange schooling and layoffs make the world an un-fun place to be. People are angry and feeling like their opinions are God's truth, people who SHOULD share a value system are having a hard time agreeing on anything. Our family has had a bit of a stressful year, as many families have, and it was time for a change. So the Crocker Family has run away from home. Last Wednesday, we finished packing up Betty Lou Blue Bus, put the van on a dolly behind, grabbed our friend Shannon and rolled out of town. For the next foreseeable future, you may assume that this has become a travel blog. We are not sure how long we are on this adventure, up to 60 days is planned, but the world is a strange place right now so we are holding things open-handed. 
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It's been a minute

When thinking things through, some people talk it out with friends, some ask a professional such-and-such, some journal.... I write blog posts...mostly in my head. I have started to think it might work a bit better if they came OUT of my head. Heaven knows that there is a LOT to work through in the world right now. January was pretty normal, which I completely took for granted. I didn't know what I didn't know, mostly that the world was about to turn up-side down. February we ended up in the hospital with a very sick kid. Eliana had an infection that moved into the space between her eyes and brain and cause several blood clots. There was surgery, a 10 day hospital stay, and she came home on a pharmacy worth of drugs, including a central line. I don't know what we would have done without our friends and family rallying around us. We had meals and gift cards for takeout, groceries, sleepovers for the other kids, and so many people who stood in the gap for us. My heart will
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So long, summer....

I get that blogging may be an outdated form of communication, but, frankly, I do it for me. I have missed it in the last year. It serves as a place to dump my thoughts, but it first requires me to organize them in a readable way. Some of my topics are boring, you have been warned. Summer ends this week. Ok, so not "real summer" with a solstice and all but "functional" summer is coming to a close, meaning kids have to get back to school, meaning I have to get back to teaching said kids, since we homeschool. I have a love-hate relationship with the end of summer. I love having rhythm to life, which is extremely lacking during the summer months, but I hate having the expectation of responsibility. I love learning new things, but I hate when I have to teach a completely disinterested kids a topic they refuse to engage with. I love fall, but I hate being cold. I love my kids having a chance to hang out with all the school friends (they do an enrichment program ea
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Gluten Free Sourdough

WARNING: This bread is a work in progress.  I  have the best childhood memories of homemade bread. Even better was the homemade sourdough cinnamon rolls! I would "help" my mom mix, kneed, and of course, served as quality control. It reminds me of Christmas and family and FROSTING. I hit my early 20's and found out I was a Celiac. *SOB* No more amazing bread. It has been my mission for years to figure out how to do a good sourdough bread that is gluten free and doesn't taste like sand/cardboard/icky things. Then I heard about a study out of Italy and it renewed my interest in figuring this out, more on this in a moment! A long time ago, bread made this way wasn't considered anything special, it was just...bread. The woman of the house would feed a starter, remove some and mix with salt and flour and water, let it raise for a day or longer, then bake. Repeat daily. Bread took TIME, and science now tells us that it was actually better for us! Commercial br
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Average

Can I tell you a secret? Well, its only kinda a secret to those who know me. I am a half-ass homeschooler. This isn't because half-ass is what I am aiming for, its just that we all seem to like to do other things MORE. Things like going to the pumpkin patch or Littleton Historic Farm, things like the museum and the zoo, even things like going for a walk with my 90+ year old grandmother. We are aiming for EPIC childhood with a passable education. Every state is different, and here in Colorado, we are required to do testing or teacher review every other year starting in grade 3. I am not against accountability, I think testing gives us so idea of where the gaps lay in our children knowledge. Testing makes me crazy nervous. See, I am ok with our kids learning what they need to know when they need to know it. I also know that much of the knowledge my children posses is not that kind they test for; things like what chickens eat, how to care for foster kittens, the colors to
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