Thursday, August 28, 2008

Brain Vomit

Catchy title, no? Things on my mind, typed out so that they are on my blog, instead of bouncing around in my head.

- I like kids, no shocker there. I usually even like my own kids. I think we will have more. If we have at least one more and then adopt a couple, does that make our family freakishly large? Do I care if I have a freakishly large family? I say this and my baby doesn't even sleep through the night yet. I say "yet" because some day it is bound to happen...right?

-I am generally against waking a sleeping child for just about any reason. It is now almost 4:30 and Elie is still asleep. She has a cold. If she doesn't wake up soon, I will never be able to put her in bed by 7. She needs her sleep but I need the sanity or both kids in bed at a decent hour. What to do?

- I have no idea what to make for dinner tonight. Elie doesn't care and either does Addie. I want burgers or taco bell or something equally nutritionally devoid, but feel guilty feeding that crap to my children. If I cook, I have to clean it up. To clean up, I have to empty the dishwasher of clean dishes. I should also mop and vacuum, but that has nothing to do with food. Are black bean brownies a dinner item?

-I am sick of "stuff". The more I have, the more I have to clean/put away/keep track of. Yet I buy more. Is this because I am a brainwashed American consumer? Some days I day dream of my house burning to the ground. All the stuff is gone and I get a clean start. How is that for really not wanting to clean your house!

- Some days I dream of doing something significant. I know, motherhood is "the most important thing I could ever do" blah blah blah. Its not that I want to escape my life or that I crave the spot light, I just feel like my impact is that of a gnat on a windshield, unnoticed. God has put a few things on my heart and they feel scary and "un wise". Where to go from here?

- My eyes hurt. I blame my contacts and the dust at the living history farm.

- I don't want "church" but my heart longs for community. I won't church shop anymore, it is insulting to all involved. I want "meat" to grow on in a group of believers who want to do life together. I don't want a group who gets together for "bible study" and then goes there own way until they meet again next week. Whats the point of that?

Tuesday, August 26, 2008


Sorry for the lack of blog post lately, I have been feeling uninspired. See, usually I have a post or two rambling around in my head. I have had the posts in my head, but no inspiration to actually type them out. Here is a brief update on our family:

Addilyn- Is now 7 months old, which totally blows my mind. She is a fine sleeper during the day, but then night hits and she can't seem to figure it out. The child still won't eat baby food. I have a grinder and smash anything she can't gum. She eats everything we do, from pasta with Italian sausage to fruit to corn on the cob. She sits really well and has started rocking back and forth on her hands and knees. She babbles, coos, and giggles. She is the sweetest baby who loves to cuddle. I am thrilled that she is a mama's girl, since Elie is, and always has been, all about papa.

Elie- This child makes me laugh every day. She is over all very well behaved and has an amazing imagination.We recently saw a pincher bug, so Elie has been pretending to be that bug. She crawls around and backs up to you leg and "pinches" you with her butt while saying "PINCH". Its the funniest thing ever. I am so glad she is out of diapers, when I think of having to change two kids everyday, I know I am lucky! Last week we gave binky to the binky fairy in exchange for chocolate. She has done great, only a few rough moments. Right now we all have a cold. Elie loves to help me take care of Addie. The other day she came upstairs and said she needed a wipe. I asked why and she said because Addilyn had a messy face. I asked if she had spit up, Elie said no, she had been feeding her brownie. That's just great, exactly what the baby need, chocolate.

Matt- Is traveling a ton. He will be out of town for about 6 weeks straight, home only for long weekend. He hates it, I hate it, Elie really hates it.

Me- I am tired. Between a husband who travels way two much and a baby who sleeps way too little, I need a vacation and a massage. I joined a gym, which, if you know me at all, you know is crazy because I hate to exercise. The gym has childcare and a hot tub, need I say more?

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

By the numbers

In the last 24 hours:

Bowls of cereal eaten by my 2 year old: 4 and the were all for breakfast

Diapers changed: 7

People dressed:3

Baths given/taken:5

Loads of laundry folded:3

Books read: 6

Questions answered: 1,865

Floor swept: 2 times

said "Obey please":20 times

Hours of sleep: not enough

Blogs posted: 1

Glasses of milk spilled on head:1

Facebook status updates: 3

Binky's tossed in the trash: ALL OF THEM!! well, not Addie's

Monday, August 18, 2008

Our Candidate's

John McCain- The US Senator from Arizona serving from 1987. A POW in Vietnam, ran from president in 2000, was asked by John Kerry to be his running mate. In 2002 his voting record was 6 most liberal of republicans. By 2005, he was the 3ed most Conservative. Wrote the book "Faith of My Fathers" that was made into a movie. Was named one of Times "25 most influential people" in 1997. If elected, he will be the country's oldest president at age 72. Strong supporter of Bush and the current war. He is married to Cindy, has 7 children and 4 grandchildren.

Barack Obama-Current jr US Senator from Illinois. Has lived all over the world, schooled in Hawaii, went to college at Columbia and then Harvard, majoring in Political science. Taught constitutional law. In 1996 was elected to state senate. Listed as one of Times "Worlds most influential people". He is married with 2 daughters.

Its funny, as I type this I notice I have much less to write under the "Barack Obama" heading than I do under the "John McCain" heading. I think part of it is that Barack is young, there really just isn't that much history behind him, which could be a problem. He is also very "out there". The media loves this guy, so I feel like he is better known in general. One of the things Barack has going for him is his ability to use technology to further his cause. He pod casts and blogs, he is publishing a book about his politics, he is very with the times. On the other hand, there seems to be a much better feeling of being "rooted" in John McCain.

I don't know who I am voting for. Frankly, I don't love either of our top two choices and don't like the fact it is pretty much narrowed to 2 choices. I choose to believe that there is a person out there who is un-sullied by politics with a great plan for America, but since he is the little guy, he will never be seen or voted for. I don't have a clue how to fix this, but, as I am sure you assumed, there is more to come.

Saturday, August 16, 2008


This is a heads-up to all my blog readers that I will be posting political stuff soon. Many of you won't agree with it, others just don't want to hear it and still others don't give a rip. Consider yourself warned.

Friday, August 15, 2008

The Girls

I have had a good month, I have gotten to go out with the girls twice! The first time was at the beginning of the month, with my mom and sister. I am one of those who is blessed to actually like spending time with my family. We went to this Italian place that serves GF stuff, went walking in Golden and then came back to moms house and enjoyed an awesome dessert.

Girls at the Italian place
Making fish lips at the fish
The "Ross" girls on a walk

The second time was last night. I went out with Kari, Jen and my sis Steph. Amanda was supposed to join us, but Ryan was sick. We had mojitos and aps at The Samba Room and then went to the Rio for a bit of food. We were home at a decent hour and had an awesome time.
Jen and I in front of the pretty flowers
Enjoying our drinks

Monday, August 11, 2008

Adulthood is over-rated

I was in line at Target the other day, chatting with the casher (my sister Amanda says this is one of my more annoying habits, but that is a whole different post) I made the comment that I should just sign half of Matts paycheck over to them, she said they should just keep her money, too. She was young (19-ish?) and lamenting adulthood.

I have, for a long time, thought growing up was completely over-rated. Now, I am not a pessimist by nature, usually the opposite (I have been known to be called "irkingly perky", also by Amanda) But I feel I was handed a whole load of crap when it came to this adulthood thing. Here are, what I believe, the top fallacies of growing up:

1. Money- When your young you dream of making the big bucks. what you don't realize is the big bucks, once made, are not for you. They pay for taxes, rent/mortgage, health care, school loans and a bunch of other un-fun things

2. Marriage- Ahhh, the dream of having a "soul mate". You spend your time gazing lovingly into each others eyes, thinking how they complete you...until the honey moon ends. I consider myself happily married (I hope Matt does too) but marriage is hard work. It is a lot of sacrifice; time, closet space, money, and ideals are no longer your own. Your committed to make it work, which means you have to solve problems instead of hopping they will just get better. Want to know how selfish you really are? Get married.

3. Career- Oh, to spend your time doing something you love and getting paid for it. Could there be anything better? The problem is, work! Starting new jobs is hard, with a steep learning curve. Sure you make money, but see #1. If you have any money left to have fun with, you don't have the time. Why? Because your working! And summers off? Forget about it!

4. Parenthood- Could anything be more fun than a baby? Wow, I don't even know where to start on this one. I could mention the loss of your beautiful body to the creation of another. Or I could mention the fact that you have no idea how truly selfish you are until you have a child. Your time will never again be your own. The loss of privacy, time, sleep, all fashion sense...And babies don't write you a paycheck or say "thanks".

5. Body- Remember standing in front of the mirror in high school lamenting your "chubby belly" or "huge thighs". Guess what hon...this is as good as it gets. It is all down hill from here. Your nice rack will sink to your knees, your belly and butt only get bigger, and any dimples from here on out won't be the cute kind.

When I was young, I always imagined there would come a time in my life where I would feel like I had arrived into adulthood. A moment when I felt strong, secure, confident and in charge. Who knows, maybe that day will still come, but if it hasn't been triggered by a marriage, mortgage, child birth and parenthood, then I am not feeling too optimistic.

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So, know you know what I do when I am not cooking or playing with the kids. Heaven knows I'm not cleaning, have you seen this place?!

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

Whos Who

This is a test, inspired by Jenny, to see if you can tell the girls apart. I don't really think they look that much alike, but we will see what you think. So...who is who?

The top one is Addilyn and the bottom is Elie. Lets try again...

Elie is the picture in the exersaucer and Addie is the one on the couch. the girls look alike?

Addie went to the doctor for her 6 month appointment today. She is almost 14 pounds (5%) and in the 40% for height. Apparently we make long skinny kids. She is ahead developmentally (like her sister always was) so they are not worried. That's all that is new here!

Monday, August 4, 2008

Bouncing Baby Girl(s)

I haven't done the video thing in a while, so here you go. Addilyn in the doorway bouncer. Then Elie, not to be out done by some little baby, in the doorway bouncer.