Saturday, November 29, 2008

Snow Day!

Finally, we got some snow. I mean, its getting a little ridiculous that it is almost December and we haven't even had anything to shovel yet. Elie loved the snow. Addilyn was fine with it, but over all unimpressed.

We went sledding in the front yard. I know, its not really much of a hill, but when your 3 you have to start somewhere. Otis loves the snow, him and Elie love to play chase.

Both kids have a cold. Again. I think I see a theme for the winter. They both handle it like champs. Addilyn is a terrible sleeper and has been since day one, so it really isn't much different than usual. Lots of boogers at the Crocker house.

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Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Thankful Tuesday

Today I am thankful for 3 year olds. Yes, Elie is sometimes a pain in the neck, but I love this age. She is learning so fast. Last night we discussed "Carnivore and herbivore" and what was what. We have been talking about water, ice and steam. We sort things by size and color. We tell stories. I have learned that you never tell a 3 year old a secret, Elie and Matt went Christmas shopping for me and I know exactly what they bought! Elie is such a blessing in my life. I love watching her care for her little sister, she crys if anyone gets hurt, and loves to make you feel better when your having a bad a day.

Monday, November 24, 2008

Thankful Monday

Today I am thankful for 10 month olds with a sense of humor. Addilyn has discovered hers. She puts her binky in my mouth and laughs. She puts her shoe on her head and laughs. She gets why things are funny and its great. Here is a video of her latest trick. We may not win the "Parenting of the Year" award, but gosh, its funny!

Addilyn has more than enough personality to fit in well with this family. She is so funny anymore, wanting to communicate and be part of all the action. Here are some recent pics of our sweet youngest baby. Thank you God, for starting people out as sweet little babies.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008


I consider myself blessed beyond measure to be surrounded by wonderful women. I have a great play group who goes out for girls nights. I have single women who remind me what it looks like to be cool. I have MOPS and some wonderful ladies who are older, mentor moms. I have my sisters.
Our Friday morning bible study is on wisdom, taken straight from Proverbs. This week we talked about friendship. Here is what I learned:
  1. Friendship is distinctive. Friends and acquaintances are different. It is better to have a few close friends than a whole host of acquaintance who don't know your heart. Friends have your best interest at heart and an acquaintance has common interest. It is the difference of know about someone and truly knowing someone.
  2. Friendship endures. Even when I don't NEED you as a friend, I want you in my life. I love you when your a pain and when your fun. Friendship makes the choice to love when your unlovable
  3. A friend provides and asks for "heartfelt council". Influence goes both ways. It is iron sharpening iron.
  4. Friends are "trustworthy with a wound", they will tell you like it is even when it hurts. A real friend avoids mean spirited barbs and teasing. If there is a problem, it is dealt with and it further cements a real friendship rather than destroying it.
  5. There is always risk involved. Only those who really know your heart can break it. Gossip is the greatest cause of damage to friendship. You should never tell a secret that would cause a friends loss of dignity.

I love my friends and Cherish the opportunity to draw acquaintances closer. God has blessed this season in my life. I want to always strive to be a good friend, to respect a friends heart and secrets. Lord, guard my tongue, give me courage to open my heart to relationships they may hurt, let me love like Jesus.

Saturday, November 15, 2008


Addilyn looking longingly at her sister having fun in the snow

Elie, dressed and ready to play!

Usually I love Fridays. I have MOPS or bible study and shop in the afternoon followed by yoga. Matt is either home or on his way. Not today. Matt is in Hawaii over the weekend so its just the girls and I. I hate when he travels over a weekend, everyone else is doing family time so our weekends just drag.

Yesterday it snowed! Elie looked outside and said "It's a snowing day!". She was thrilled and didn't even make it out of her jammies before she had on her snow boots. I asked her if she wanted breakfast first and she told me "not yet!". On went the jacket and new mittens from Grandma and Bumpa and Elie and the dogs went out to play. She played in the snow for a good half hour. The dogs loved it. Poor baby Addilyn just looked out the window longingly.

Friday is always busy for us, yesterday was no exception. The day started with bible study, a Beth Moore study on wisdom, and then home for lunch and naps. Normally Matt lets me do all my shopping on Friday's without the kids, but he wasn't home. After naps the girls went to aunt Amanda's so I could hit the store. I picked up the kids, brought them home to feed them dinner and get ready for Grandma to come over and watch them while I went to a shower. I finished the prep for Bonnie's baby shower and headed out the door when mom got in. By the time I got home last night it was almost 10. My kitchen was a mess and the baby was awake. I did a quick clean so I would be able to identify my counters for breakfast, put baby to bed and stumbled into bed myself. Addilyn was up twice last night and up for the day a little after 5. Why this child doesn't sleep is beyond me. If she wasn't such a sweet baby I would have sold her to gypsies months ago!

Chocolate Mousse I made for Bonnie's baby shower

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Monkey Cake

I forgot to post a picture of Elie's birthday cake. She is really into curious George so we made a monkey cake. Yesterday, her friend came over to celebrate and play with her. Aunt Amanda gave Elie a really cool Curious George coloring book with stickers, so I copied a page and put out some birthday stickers and stamps. This morning Elie asked "Why is my birthday all over?" I told her she only gets one a year. She said "Oh, that makes me sad."

Monday, November 10, 2008

The death of Fair

Once upon a time, back when I was young, I believed in fanciful things like most children do. I believed that my stuffed animals had feelings that were hurt if I failed to kiss them good night. I believed there was a monster under my bed who would eat my feet when I had to get up to pee in the middle of the night. I believed in fair. I never did have the chance to believe in Santa or the Easter bunny do to insistence of my sisters that they were not real. Childhood is a lovely thing.

At some point, I stopped kissing my stuffed animals every night before bed. I am sure it was originally with some pangs of guilt. While I no longer believe my animals are real, they do hold a special place in my heart filled with memories of tea parties and hide and seek.

I am not sure when I stopped jumping into bed to avoid the dreaded toe monster. I am assume it was when I became old enough to worry about fear not being cool. I still don't like the dark, but manage to walk to my bed with grace and dignity befitting my age. Currently I know the only things to fear under my bed are very old socks and an embarrassingly large amount of dust. My getting to bed is impeded only by the two large dogs I trip over.

Fair is a different story. My parents always were a proponent of Fair during Christmas, making sure to spend the same amount of money for each of us girls. In school, teachers told us about Fair and grading. Fair popped up in everything; sports, friendship, and slices of pie. Everyone seemed to like and support him. Great lengths were undertaken to make sure he was present at important events.

When I was in middle school, our youth group took a missions trip to Arizona. We worked with mentally handicapped adults and did VBS on a Indian reservation. Fair began to feel ill. What I saw and heard of those children's lives did nothing to support Him.

I married young. Fair failed to show up. I worked hard and felt, at times, if anything got done it was because I did it. Where was Fair? I was sure that this is not what I had signed up for. Fair seemed to be different according to who called upon him. Fair became critically ill.

My dad has gone to Nepal. We now partner with some pastors there to take care of women and children who have been left by the men who promised to care for them. Apparently, Fair has never shown up in this country in any form. I read a blog about a man who gave up everything in American to help orphan children in Haiti. It seems that Fair must not get out much, because he has never gone to Haiti either.

My friend has cancer. Not the kind that leaves you inconvenienced for a little while, but the kind that threatens to steal her away from her babies. Cancer will take her health, her breasts, her hair, her time. It will steal mommy away from child and wife away from husband. Her life will never look the same again. It stole her sense of safety.

So long, dear friend Fair. I wanted to believe in you, I held on even when it didn't look like I should. I am not sure what I will do with the hole you leave in my life. I know Someone who wants to fill it with things like grace, faith and hope, but it seems so scary to trust again. I will start with Faith, I will try to believe that He who fills the holes really dose know what He is doing. I will fill the whole with Him who doesn't do what is fair, but does what is best.

Sunday, November 9, 2008

3 years ago...

Eliana was born. Here is her story

Matt and I decided that we were ready for kids. We were just waiting for God to decide we ready for kids. Wouldn't you know it, the day before we left for a trip for Italy we found out I was expecting. Like my sister Steph has said, you know how babies are made, but it is always a little surprising to find out it actually works!

My time in Italy was a lot of fun, I was tired and took lots of naps but over all felt pretty good. When we got back to the US we had our first ultrasound and saw Elie for the first time. I was 9 weeks along and she was this itty bitty baby floating around in a sea of black.

I struggled with some headaches, high blood pressure and swelling. Matt got the chicken pox when I was about 6 months along but I never got them. At 20 weeks we tried to get a peek to see if we were going to have a boy or girl, but Elie wasn't feeling cooperative. At 32 weeks the doctor thought she may not be head down so we had another ultrasound and this is where the fun began.

Turns out the doc was right, she was head up. Not only that, but she had very little fluid so she wasn't going to turn. So much for all the planning I had done for a natural birth. This was the first time I was faced with kids not doing things like I had planned, just God's sense of humor. We planned a c-section for 37 weeks, deciding at this point she was safer out than in. I went weekly for ultrasounds and that is when we discovered we were having a girl.

The day before my scheduled c-section, my doc called. She had a family emergency and had to go out of town. Would I be interested in coming in a day early to deliver? We rushed around and called family and went in that evening to meet our little girl.

The c-section went as planned. Elie was delivered healthy and happy, she had very dry skin from being in low fluid for a month and looked a lot like Elmer Fud. We loved her anyway. She was 6lbs 8oz and 20 inches. My recovery went well and Elie grew to be the little girl who we love today.

Monday, November 3, 2008

Baby's gettin' big

I can't believe that Addilyn is 9 months old. It seems like just yesterday that she joined our family. Here is her 9 month update:

  • Addilyn is a peanut, not yet 15 lbs. Elie was 17 at a year, we will see if Addie is even that big.

  • She is on the move! Addilyn crawls in a weird half army crawl half normal crawl sort of thing because of the hardwood, I'm assuming. She is scary fast. She pulls up to her knees on everything she can reach, which isn't much because she is tiny.

  • Addilyn says more, mama, papa, and hi. She signs nurse, more, all done, and drink. Elie is always telling me what she believes Addilyn is saying. Addilyn also claps and dances.

  • We FINALLY have teeth! Yes, she grew two. We were wondering because she hasn't been sleeping great for a few days, but she is never a wonderful sleeper, so it was hard to tell.

  • Addilyn's favorite toys have 4 legs and fur. If she crawls over and they walk away, she is heart broken. Lucky for her, they are very tolerant.

Halloween was fun. We had a party on Wends. at Kits for all they playgroup kids. I got together with some of my former students and their mama's on Thursday for another party and we went trick-or-treating with the Honeycutts and Osness' on Friday. Every day since Elie has asked if we can go trick-or-treating.

Elie woke up this morning with a lousy cold and pronounced that she was "very sick". Now I am sure Addilyn will get it. It is beginning to look like I may never again enjoy a full nights sleep. Elie is SUCH a whiner when she doesn't feel good, she gets that from Matt!

This week we will be getting new windows in our house. I am so excited. Maybe now addilyns curtains won't move on windy days even when her window is shut. We made a great deal with Matt Osness, God has blessed us with a great brother in law!

Thursday Elie's friends are coming over for a birthday celebration and play date. Elie is all into Curious George and chose a monkey cake. I will be sure to take pictures.