I don't go to church. Not here in Jersey. Sure, we could "church shop" until we found a "fit" but I hate that consumerism to the point I just can't bring myself to do it. Eliana and Addilyn go to AWANA at a baptist church that also has a school we may send Elie to next year. We get a discount if we are church members, my husband, slightly tongue in cheek, said he would rather pay more. I agree. Anyway, I can't be a baptist, I just made my first jello salad ever yesterday.
So we seek connection in other places. I talk to people at karate, the park and through school. Matt has coworkers he is befriending. The connections are not "christian's", at least not all of them. But they are organic, community based. I learn from the people in my life, though they may never went to bible college and don't have the paper that says God talks to them in special ways and that I should sit at there feet and listen. These people come into our home, play with our children, eat our food, do life with us. It is messy but real. There are no work books or outlines. Just connections and growth.
I have been following the research of Brene Brown, not a Christian, but I LOVE her stuff. It is powerful and moving. It touches on the heart of so many things I believe are important; relationship, connection, believing ourselves worthy.If you have only a few moments, read this. If you have about 20 minutes, watch this. If you have more time, look at this. This is the kind of stuff God bring across my path, challenges my heart with, pushes me outside my world view and convicts me. I am still processing all of the above, but I will be talking about it more when I get it a little more neatly organized in my brain.
Please don't don't read this as a "Gretchen is bitter and hates church" kind of post, because it isn't the truth. This is much more of a "I think it is cool that God meets me where and for who I am" kind of post. Church and workbooks with bible studies works for you? Awesome. So glad God is meeting you where he has you.