Wednesday, January 12, 2011


It snuck up on me. I thought I had more time. I am in complete denial. I signed up Eliana for school. Not preschool, but real, honest to God, kindergarten.

I have struggled with this for a while. I like my oldest child. A lot. I love to talk to her, which is good because she is rarely quiet. I love hearing how her mind works and answering her questions. I have loved teaching her to read, learning about kittens, helping her help me cook. I don't want to send her away, not even for half a day. Her sisters love her, she keeps the peace and is my second set of hands. I'm not ready for her to be big and worse, gone.

And yet. Eliana loves people and is beside herself excited at the idea of going to school. She loves to learn and be big. It would do Addilyn good to be the big kid in the house. I think I am learning to let go.

We visited the school we would like her to go to. Eliana was impressed, she was ecstatic about the library and impressed with the playground. Matt and I love the multiple age groupings and the hands on learning. We loved the low teacher/student ratio and the emphasis on independence.

So we enter the age of the school age child. I'm not ready.


Jennifer McHam said...

Oh. My. Word.
I am just now reading this post - and what news.
It is traumatic, I'm not going to lie. I have to come to terms with it every year and T's on his third year now. When I finally sent P this year is when it really hit me. I have no more babies in the house. They're growing up. And they need me less every single day.

Or do they...??

Eliana will grow into a beautiful young woman right before your eyes and she will learn to read epics and write novels and she will not need her parents to do simpler things for her anymore. But you know as much as I do that you always need your mama. (and your daddy.)

Love you friend. Miss you a ton. Wish I could be there to give you a great big hug when she starts school.

Honeycutt Family said...

I hear ya, friend! :)