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Blessings and Broken hearts

I have an acquaintance who's cousins child was just diagnosed with stage 4 cancer. She is 10 months old. My heart breaks for this family as they lean on God. The found all of this out just a few days ago and the baby has already had one surgery and is now starting chemo. I cried as I read there blog.

I don't know that family personally. I don't know the children of Pwoje Espwa. I could stick my head in the sand, live in my suburban bubble and pretend the hurting don't exist. Some days I want to. Loving others hurts. The world has problems I can't even begin to imagine how to fix, I could use the excuse that I am just one, broke, stay at home mother of two. I could say "I can't fix it so why dwell on it?".

I have been called to live outside myself, for Someone other than myself. If I say I want to know Him on a personal, deep level, I need to know His heart. The hurting are the heart of my Savior. I am created to love until it hurts, to give until I have nothing left, to let go of any pride I have and swallow the jagged pill that it really isn't all about me. I have been blessed beyond measure, now I live to bless others. How God?

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Kari said…
I know...I feel the same way. Sometimes opening my heart up to hurt for others only reminds me of my own hurt from the past. Hurt I would rather forget.

So trying...so painful! But you're right, you just give until you can't anymore and that's when the strength of the Spirit carries us through to the next phase of giving and the next...
30 January, 2009 11:32
Jennifer McHam said…
Oh gosh I cried and cried and I still can't wrap my head around it. We are praying for them and hurting for them and hoping this all just goes away. Life can be so unfair sometimes... It helps to know that there is a better place after we leave here where everything is fair and just... We heard a song in church today called (I THINK) "God in this city".... I'll have to find it for you - it was awesome & you would love it & the background on it... Chris Tomlin I think...
01 February, 2009 17:55
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